I am so thankful to finally be on here and after more than a year of TTC, I received my BFP on a EPT Sunday and I'm PG! It was a faint line and it was 6 dpt. I tested again 8 dpt and the line was darker.
I had a HSC/LAP in July this year which turned out ok and have had so much BW, injections, and so many other tests. I am pretty exhausted and tired of being poked, but it is worth everything I've done. I am still doing P4 oil shots (which hurt so badly) and taking ERT to support the pregnancy. I have relatively ok health except for some terrible chronic issues from a car accident in 2007 and besides BC messing things up for me, steroid injections really messed up my hormones. I barely started to O regularly since February only on Metformin 500-1000 mg a day and over like 3 month period lost massive weight, which was scary. I took Clomid for many, many, months and it only managed to help me OV once last year in a 6 month period. I had a BOB with OPK/OPT and bought the clearblue monitor and also took my BBT regularly. I tried castor oil, yoga, reflexology, acupuncture, read books, and read many blogs. I tried eating organic and healthier and all it did was stress me out the more I did extra things and the more depressed I got. I got so deep in depression crying often and dealing with chronic pain all at once and it was very hard.
I am 28 and I feel like I only have so much time and I have had so much questioning from people about "When will you guys have kids?""Do you want kids?" I was so tired of being asked and all along know that I am trying so hard for it. It was so irritating and annoying. Then friends all around me kept popping up pregnant and said it took 3 months/7 months.... and so forth and I was happy for them but still unhappy about me being unsuccessful. I had irregular cycles after stopping BC and the cycles could be up to 40 days on Metformin when I did OV. I either had a cyst that kept releasing hormones or AO cycles. I think I drove my spouse crazy keeping my calendar clearly marked for the month and told him we had to BD every other day on week of O. It has been a roller coaster ride. I am glad we choose to do IVF versus trying IUI. I don't feel that would have worked for me. Although his SA was good and all my test were clear but something in between the whole process didn't work out and I didn't know what it was... and I was stressing a lot.
I started to think about the story of Hannah in the Bible and pondered over it and also told myself Proverbs 3:5, 6 more than 100x a day. And just taking the example from Hannah, I prayed about the matter and let God know how I felt and wondered for months why I wasn't being blessed with such a great miracle. I started to feel he hadn't heard my petitions to him and felt hopeless. But just like the scriptures say that after she prayed so intensely to God- "her face became self-concerned no more." I had to keep telling myself that he had heard me but just because it doesn't come instantly doesn't mean it won't come at all. God did choose the right time for me because it made me closer to my spouse and also my stress went down when I was doing IVF and was more focused on following the doctor's instructions & making sure I took all the medication I needed to on-time. Our bodies can have malfunctions and not work properly- especially at the times we need it to. However, we can find encouragement through many avenues and many sources. My encouragement was doing things for others in turn helped encouraged me especially (at church), with friends, and family. I started working more on myself and building relationships and fix some that needed repairing. I had to keep socializing instead of just secluding myself because it made things worse to not have friendships.
I had IVF in September 12 and because of OHSS my doctor decided to do a FET cycle the following month which was last month- October 12. This is my second RE, the first one just wasn't working out and we weren't getting anywhere after almost a year. So I knew I need to make changes and go with a better clinic and somewhere where the success rate was good. I am glad my doctor suggested to transfer one instead of two because of the risk involved. I think I would have been pregnant with twins and my frame is very small. That would have been too hard on me.
I really don't have many symptoms yet and am only 4 weeks and a few days. I was told at 6 weeks I would see some symptoms. I just have bad fatigue and my appetite has increased quite a bit. I am drinking protein shakes and trying to gain more weight and taking my pre-natal vitamin daily.
Today my HCG Beta 175, so PG is confirmed :) !!!! I go back in Friday for the next Beta. I'm beyond words excited and hope the pregnancy goes well.
***Baby dust to all ***